The Cutting Edge

I went to Dorothy Cutting’s ‘funeral’

On my electric bike

Because she would have approved of that.

Visiting her little seaside house – for the last time? –

A place once

Packed with books and collected artworks and protest signs and flowers from the garden and friends and happy chaos,

Prowled by a bengal cat called Luke Skywalker

Where

Dorothy would preside

Pouring out her opinions, discoveries, outrage, delight

Always lit with life, dancing even when sitting down

Leaning out for love, pouring over with love to spare.

Visits with her were

Like mad hatter tea parties where

She’d peel back the layers to get

To the heart of the heart of the matter.

You’d swap riddles and leave piled with questions,

And a crucial mission she’d have bestowed upon you:

A trip to the cutting edge

Led to mischief of the very finest kind.

All she demanded was that the world be healed

And that you – yes YOU – got up and did something to make that happen.

In exchange she gave and gave: witness

The sign hung down by the beach reading, instead of “no trespassing”..

“At High Tide You Can Use the Path Behind the Boathouse”

She died at 90, exactly as she wanted:

Free, on purpose, without remorse.

Her children scatter her ashes

Into the rain soaked sea

Then her friends

Toss flowers from her garden – rose, cosmos, dahlia, sunflower –

After her

Petals dotting the surface with brilliance

The way she always did.

Riding home

Sweater thwacking my legs, rain running down my face

I am drenched in gratitude

Laugh crying at how— of course! — Dorothy’s funeral march

Is a sprint!!

And feeling the glad absence

Of the neurotic bullshit she removed from me

And the eternal presence

Of the antic joyfulness

She incited, that

Goes on and on and on.